a reverse chronological series of quotes from my digital journals to contextualize this past year’s comings and goings
Staring down the barrel of June. But I think I’m looking forward to killing time, crying in a good way about things like Those Are Strings, Pinocchio, and wearing dresses with my legs sticking to the black vinyl seats of my car. These relationships in my life right now may be forgotten and they may be remembered but neither of these is such a bad thing.
The world is a little bit evil sometimes but in truth that’s not what it’s about and don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. There is hot tea, and eating snow in the middle of a run in your sports bra, and Christmas lights that you can keep up as long as you want.
You see, last night I was lonely and a little depressed, and in the quiet evening darkness of my home, I decided to have cottage cheese and leftover tater tots, watch Breaking Dawn Part 1, cry the whole time, and then go to bed at 8:40.
I want somewhere to put all this love that I have, all this love that was formed by the house that I grew up in, and the family that I shared it with. It reaches beyond what I’ve known and loved forever and pulls me toward where I want to put my love next. Dear diary, I love him.
The Dilemma Of It All 